Posts Tagged ‘suicide’

Things are not as bad as they seem…

November 5, 2011 Leave a comment

I think the last post was in many ways a mistake. It reflected how I felt at the time, and in that sense it is good always to be honest about things. What is the point to have a blog and not tell the truth? However, as a commenter pointed out, my brain was overwhelmed and I was not making good decisions.

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Things are not well…

November 3, 2011 2 comments

The meds are working at about 75%. I keep revising that figure downwards as things get worse.

I was supposed to do 40 hours of work from home during the past two weeks, and I would have been paid enough to live very comfortably for the month. Tomorrow is the last day, and I’ve accomplished nothing. Therefore, no money.

I can’t concentrate, no matter what I do. I kept lying that I was working, hoping to eventually get caught up, but now tomorrow is the deadline and I am going to be exposed.

I made up my will, at least. I don’t want really to die, although it doesn’t bother me. We could use the insurance money, I guess. Although I’m not sure the insurance will pay out if I kill myself, and if I make it look like an accident putting this paragraph in my blog is really asking for trouble.